Musing

Yesterday I did get my hands and feet done and completely relaxed as I got my pedi. I let the chair massage out some kinks and relaxed. It was wonderful.

When I got home I finished dinner – Lindsey started it for me – then Elgin and I just hung out. We went for a walk through the subdivision at dusk. It was a lovely evening. We always have a nice breeze in the evenings which is very welcomed.

That’s when I realized how much I run, how much I do and how rest/vacations are needed to recharge and refuel. You cannot continue at warp speed and not burn out. My work load is increasing. Both for the ministry and personally and I’m asking God sincerely, how do I get it all done? I look at the task and ask, “Is this even doable?” Then I remember the words of an employer…”How do you eat an elephant?” The answer is piece by piece.

I can tell you now it won’t get done in my strength…it’s going to take His and nothing is impossible for Him.

Then I thought about how far God has brought me and how much there is still to learn. There’s so much to figure out but the Holy Spirit is a real good guide and I trust Him to teach me. To fill in all the blanks.

I’m grateful for people who pour into me and help me achieve all God has planned for my life. They do this without any thought to their own calling. I’m not viewed as competition or a threat to their ministry. They don’t say, “Oh she’ll figure it out on her own” or see me struggling and not offer to help. They see it as building up the body of Christ and I love them for this. I thank God for their love and obedience. Elgin is one of these people and I love him dearly.

I’m grateful for the people in my life who know and sense God’s plan for me and are OK to let me flourish and be what He says I can be. They push me forward. They don’t put their foot on my neck and try to hold me back because it’s comfortable for them and makes them feel better if I don’t grow beyond this place.

I can say like Paul that I am less than the least of God’s people but he called me, He equipped me and tells me to run.

I learn as I go and I’m eating my elephant piece by piece.